Sunday 27 November 2016

Food of Love

I recently visited Food Matters Live, a huge conference / exhibition bringing together people and organisations with an interest in building a sustainably healthy food landscape across the world. Hundreds of businesses showcased innovative food products and services, whilst the conferences and seminars offered copious food for thought on topics like the obesity management, clean label food, sports nutrition and sustainability. Given my interest in healthy lifestyles and keenness to discover new ways to bring good nutrition to my life, it was a no-brainer that this might be an enjoyable event for me, and I wasn’t disappointed.




Aside from being introduced to loads of amazing new nutrition products (and a few free samples!), I left the event feeling my appetite for deep thinking had been whet as well. Working as a health coach, I spend a fair bit of my time thinking about what makes people tick when it comes to achieving / maintaining a healthy weight, and, more importantly, how the heck we might go about getting people living well on a population-level scale. This was the focus of many of the discussions at Food Matters Live, with one panel session in particular getting the cogs whirring for me: a forum on the psychology of food choice.




Yes, somewhat counter-intuitively, the answers to these big questions about population-level change start with the individual, with the internal factors that influence what and how we choose to eat. Eloquently stated by Bee Wilson at this event, we humans have an ‘invariably complex relationship with food’ and are ‘prisoners of’ this when we make food choices. In other words, our choices are deeply intertwined with our emotions, memories and experiences, such that it’s often impossible to separate these. However, as Pierre Chardon notes, we often forget that our food choices are tied up with our emotions, instead rationalising that we ‘were hungry’ or ‘liked’ the food we chose.




In reality, the complex underlying processes that influence our food choices include our upbringing (with messages such as ‘you should always clear you plate’ being particularly problematic), the variety of foods we have been exposed to across the life-course, the effects of traumatic events, and our emotional states at any given time. Many of these things we have no control over, yet some of us are more health-conscious and seemingly in control of our diets than others. Bee Wilson commented on this, noting that she used to fall into the latter camp and now considers herself fortunate to be in the former. Why is this? What makes some of us more aware and able to control what we eat than others, and what gives us the ability (or not) to change this?




As one of those people who has made this transition, this got me thinking about my own passage to conscious living and healthy eating. How did this process begin? What triggered it? Which of my personal qualities and past experiences were instrumental in making this happen, and how? In what ways do all of these factors interact with each other? I certainly don’t purport to know all the answers to these questions, at least not fully, but I have some thoughts that I feel ultimately shed light not just on my own experience but on one of the keys to a widespread shift towards healthier living on a global scale.




My own quest to live more healthily began 5 or 6 years ago with a desperate attempt to feel better after a relationship breakup. I did some reading online about ways to boost my mood, and quickly started to learn of the impact nutrition has on our mental state. I began eating
Eating more raw vegan food is one of the steps I've taken to a healthier me
more of the foods that were said to improve mood, and this proved to be the start of an ongoing and unending search for the healthiest possible version of myself. I became interested more widely in the functions that different foods fulfil, and in the other ways in which my lifestyle would impact my mind and body. Bit by bit I built (what Derren Brown would describe in his fantastic book Happy as) a ‘considered life’ filled with meaningful pursuits and healthy choices.




This rings true of the experience of Bee Wilson who I mentioned earlier. She described her own transition from health unconscious to healthy eater as being a ‘meal by meal’ process - an incremental lifestyle change – ‘not just going on a diet’. This, I think, is the crux. On top of our individual psychology often being stacked against us, and an obesogenic environment tending to steer us towards less healthy choices, we are bombarded with messages that ‘dieting’ is the road to health. Cut out this food group; take that supplement; buy those meal replacement shakes. The result? Aside from those of us who have made a concerted effort or simply been lucky enough to enter the world of healthy lifestyle enlightenment, we are left with unrealistic expectations, unsustainable diet plans and no solid knowledge of what our bodies actually need.




Being plastered with unrealistic and inaccurate messages only serves to further embed the often unhealthy relationship with and thoughts/feelings about food. The losing battle we’re already fighting becomes tougher and tougher, and we fall deeper and deeper into habitually poor lifestyle choices. That is, until something clicks, snaps us out of it, puts us on the road to control over our own lives and health. That thing will be different for all of us; for me it was improving my mood, for other it’ll be looking better, some people will look to be alive for longer to see their kids grow up. The common denominator is that we will only ever change if something is intrinsically valuable to us.




Healthy choices come from within
So what’s the answer? It’ll be invariably complex; in fact there are likely to be infinite combinations of solutions to suit each individual. Each of us needs to find our own ways of connecting to what’s important to us, engaging with healthy lifestyles and doing what we can to work with our inner psychology and the outer environment. Culturally, unfortunately the odds will continue to be stacked against us if something doesn’t change. Instead of being told what plan we should be following, which foods we should be cutting out, how many meals we should be replacing with shakes, we needs to find these individual paths. As a health coach I love that I get the opportunity to work with people to help them to understand the healthy eating guidelines and work out individual action plans that work for them. To start bringing this holistic, person-centred approach to the masses is the challenge, and I’m not quite sure where we start with that in a world where capitalism and commercialism rules the roost. If you have any thoughts as to how we move forward with this, I’d love to hear from you.

Monday 5 September 2016

All The Leaves Are Brown: Reasons to Love Autumn



So, it’s that time of year when the nights draw in, the days become chilly and blustery, and many of us find ourselves feeling a little down.  But as autumn sets in, I’ve found myself looking forward to the season and thinking of all the things that are awesome about autumn.  So, this post is simply about things I love about autumn, along with some tips for making the most of the season.   





Keeping fit

 

Autumn is a great time for fitness. With summer social activities dying down, we may find we have more time for getting active. Plus the cooler weather may make exercise a lot more comfortable, and bad weather days give opportunities to do all that indoor training we just can’t bring ourselves to do when it’s lovely outside.





Comfy clothes



I found myself disproportionately happy a couple of days ago when I found the temperature was just right to pop on one of my favourite cosy checked shirts.  Maybe this is just me, but getting into comfy clothes definitely feels like a bonus of the changing seasons!


 
Natural beauty



There aren’t many things prettier than a golden autumnal landscape.  I for one can’t wait to get out for some autumn walk as the colours change and leaves begin to fall.  And who can resist a nice crunchy leaf to step on?!







Comfort food



I like salad as much as the next person, but there’s something special about being able to enjoy the satisfaction of eating a hot meal on a chilly day after a hard day’s work, or as a pick-me-up at lunch time.  Autumn is a great opportunity to reconnect with our kitchens, discover a new recipe or two and experience all the joys that soups and stews have to offer.





Cosy nights



Snuggling on the sofa with a great friend and a good film is the ideal way to spend an autumn evening.  Or maybe a hot chocolate and a chat at a country pub.  Either way, the change in season offers a wonderful opportunity to spend more time enjoying the company of the people we love.





Learning something new
 

So it’s time for the start of a new academic year, but learning isn’t just for students!  Whether it be a mass learning online course, learning a language or picking up a new sport or exercise class, autumn is a great time to learn something new and discover a new lease for life. 


Foraging

Autumn is a great time to forage for things like mushrooms and berries. Enjoying a few blackberries as I stroll around my local areas is one of my favourite things, and theres somethign quite special about eating something you found and picked for yourself. 





Taking stock



If autumn makes you feel a bit down in the dumps, it can be a great time to reflect on your year so far, take stock and decide whether you might want to make any changes in your life.  What’s been your biggest achievement this year?  How happy are you with life right now?  What might you like to be different at the end of the year? Let autumn be a time of refresh and revival rather than melancholy and lethargy.





Monday 1 August 2016

Demons



I’ve talked before about how I firmly believe that the way we behave and deal with life’s challenges has a huge impact on our wellbeing, and today felt compelled to write about a particular example that illustrates this quite poignantly, for me at least.




Over the last couple of years I’ve had some ups and downs with my health, with episodes of feeling unwell with abdominal pain and fatigue.  I’ve had various treatments and investigations, but so far haven’t got to the bottom of what’s causing the symptoms.  At times the strain of not only the physical symptoms but the psychological impact of not knowing what the problem is has really taken its toll. 




I had two minor operations last year in attempt to fix the problem, and prior to the first one I was convinced it was going to be the answer.  Afterwards, when I realised it hadn’t helped, I was in quite a bad way for a while.  I allowed it to have quite an impact on my life, cancelling catch-ups with friends and being far less active than usual when my symptoms struck.  I was taking painkillers every day, and on the rare occasions I didn’t have tummy pain I’d end up with a migraine or something.  I couldn’t remember what it was like to feel well.  Thinking back on it now I can hardly believe I was in that kind of state when now, although nothing has changed medically, I’m in a much better place.




Simply enjoying riding my bike has played a major role in feeling healthier
I can see now that I’d gotten myself into a bit of a vicious cycle – doing less because I felt unwell, feeling sluggish because I wasn’t doing enough, and so on – and had also fallen into an unhelpful mind-set of being ‘ill’.  One day I just decided I needed to start doing something differently if I was ever going to feel better, so I took myself off painkillers (saving them only for particularly severe bouts) and gradually started to get more active again.  I also discovered the world of raw food, which led me to start making some changes to my diet.  I was already a healthy eater, but think this is one of the multitude of factors that has supported me to get back to a sense of wellbeing despite the limited progress on the medical front.




I’m now in almost completely the opposite state to how I was a year and a bit ago, and although my symptoms persist in a way I feel healthier than ever.  Another factor that has played a role has been practicing mindfulness, having completed a course at the Dorset Mindfulness Centre.  This has allowed me to be more accepting of my symptoms, which in turn has meant they have less of an impact when they do occur.  Rather than ruminating on them and dosing up, I now simply notice and get on with my day. 




As has been the case over the course of two years, I still have better and worse phases.  The difference is that at low points I might reduce the intensity of my exercise, or have an extra rest day, rather than letting it stop me in my tracks.  This helps keep me from getting back into a downward spiral, and seems to have really helped me to stay feeling relatively well.  The downs seem to be less severe, and my mood has stabilised alongside this (or maybe it’s the other way round and my stable mood helps me to deal with the physical side better!).




Before all this started, I was training really hard physically; I had a cycling coach and was competing in my local track league and time trials.  The start of my period of illness – I call it that as that’s how I saw it at the time, although I currently do not consider myself to have an illness – was one of the factors that drew me away from racing, alongside needing to spend more time and mental energy on working out my next career move.  This year, as I’ve gradually become more active, simply enjoying spending time on my bike (plus the odd weights session in the gym!) seems to have made me fitter than I was when I was doing loads of specialised, structured training. 




Time trialling a couple of years back
To me, this epitomises how state of mind and generally looking after yourself can have a massive impact on not only your sense of wellbeing but also your capacity to achieve certain things.  Last year I dropped out of a 100 mile cycle event I’d booked onto before the op that I imagined would cure everything, because I hadn’t felt anywhere near well enough to train.  Almost exactly a year later, I recently rode my first century - almost on a whim – when a club run turned out to be longer than expected and I decided I might as well tag some extra miles on to complete the hundred!  It was an important moment for me as I saw how far I’d come, simply by changing the way I reacted to what was going on.  I’ve also taken part in a couple of 10-mile time trials in recent weeks, and although I won’t be winning any titles any time soon I’m riding faster than I was two years ago, which I put down to all the factors outlined above plus the fact that I’m not really putting any pressure on myself to perform well, and making sure I get plenty of rest as well as plenty of exercise!




I just wanted to share this story because it really shows that having a chronic condition, or medically unexplained symptoms, doesn’t have to control your life.  Rather, you can manage your condition and live life the best you can in the face of it.  I realise that others have more serious and perhaps real problems physically, but hope I might inspire the odd person or two to work at taking back control of their own lives in the face of adversity.  It’s a long and challenging process that never ends – I’m still learning all the time and constantly adjusting to get the balance right and keep myself feeling relatively well – but there is hope even when it feels like you’re ever going to feel healthy again.  In the words of James Morrison, who gives the title for this post, “I’ve got demons; I just need a little time to work ‘em out”.

Saturday 26 March 2016

We Are



I write this having been inspired by attending the History of Mental Health conference at Leeds Trinity University earlier this week.  This was a joint venture between the British Psychological Society’s History/Philosophy of Psychology Section and the Critical Psychiatry Network.  If you know me or have followed my views in this blog, you’ll be aware that this is right up my street!  The observant among you will notice it’s been a wee while since I’ve posted here - aside from being busy with uni work, I’ve also been writing a few bits for OMQ Fitness & Wellness magazine - so this was the perfect prompt for me to add some fresh material.  I hope you find it a good read.

A key theme over the two day conference was that of the epistemology of mental health: What constitutes knowledge?  Where and whom does it come from?  How is it developed?  Who decides which knowledge is good or best or right?  Given the theme of the event, a large proportion of the delegates would argue that too much credence is given to the knowledge of ‘experts by training’ (psychiatrists and so forth) and not enough to ‘experts by experience’ (those who have experienced mental health difficulties and their relatives & friends).  A very balanced view was given by keynote speaker Gail Hornstein, who suggested no type of knowledge or expertise is superior, but that the two need to become more integrated and be used together, not separately, to best support people’s mental wellbeing.

This notion of separation and fragmentation was another theme that cropped up a lot in my mind over the course of the two days.  Fragmentation between those ‘with’ and ‘without’ mental health problems; between ‘experts’ and ‘patients’; between the ethos of recovery and the obsession with quantitative evidence that underpins funding for services and research; between people’s actual experience of distress and psychiatry’s explanation for it.  I strongly believe that if we can build a more unified, inclusive approach, we can in turn build a stronger mental health system and ultimately a heathier, happier, more productive society.  

To illustrate my thoughts, I first cast my mind back a fair few years, to when I read The Psychopath Test by Jon Ronson.  In hindsight, this was probably my very first taste of critical psychiatry.  I was struck by Ronson’s statement that he had been able to diagnose himself with about 6 ‘mental disorders’ by reading the DSM.  As far as I can remember, I didn’t do a great deal of thinking about this fact at the time, but some years on I’ve become a lot more familiar with this field, and my professional interests have become somewhat consumed with addressing the over-pathologisation (yep, I think I made a new word up) of human experience and mental distress.

One of my favourite things about the conference was a section that encompassed accounts of mental distress from a range of sources.  A key message was that psychiatry’s depictions of and explanations for mental ‘illnesses’ are often very different from those that the individual can make sense of themselves.  Related to this, another key point was that making sense of distress is a process that can take many years, and sticking alabel on it therefore simply doesn’t work (at least not for the labelled individual, or indeed their loved ones).  A third key theme was the need to consider mental distress on a case by case basis, because each occurrence of it is as unique as each person who experiences it.  Putting someone in a category based on your perceptions of their experience isn’t conducive to helping them recover, whereas supporting them to understand their unique experience is. 

To further illustrate my thoughts, I turn to the words of Caitlin Jenkins, who at the event presented her research on service users’ experiences of psychiatric diagnosis, along with snippets of her own experience (she herself has received more than her share of psychiatric diagnoses and treatments over the years).  She noted there is a danger of seeing a person as a series of notes, rather than as a person.  One of her participants spoke of how a diagnosis gives rise to a particular treatment; if that treatment doesn’t work, another diagnosis is given, and so on.  This resonates with my own concerns that psychiatry arbitrarily tries to fit people into boxes in a way that doesn’t facilitate true insight into their experience or therefore how to help them.  This got me thinking about something that’s crossed my mind on occasions before: what would a psychiatrist have to say about me if they had the chance to observe my life or conduct an assessment on me?  I have a few ideas as to how this might go, and present them here with alternative explanations from my own viewpoint.

Lauren’s mood has been variable over the last two weeks; she moves between being bright in mood and full of energy to being low and withdrawn, sometimes within a single day.  These mood swings do not appear to be related to any particular events but happen spontaneously.  At time of writing, Lauren is experiencing a depressive episode; she is staying at home more regularly than usual and neglecting to partake in all of her usual activities.  Previous to this she was showing signs of mild mania; her lifestyle was somewhat chaotic and she presented as being obsessed with completing as many different activities as possible within each day.

I often experience ups and downs in mood, sometimes to a greater extent than others, but see that as a normal part of human experience and manage it accordingly.  Sometimes I do feel like my changes in mood are happening for no particular reason, but I can usually identify the causes in hindsight if not at the time. I’m quite self-aware as I practice mindfulness, so can usually recognise my mood changes quite quickly and look after myself well to keep on top of this.  Over the last couple of years I’ve had ups and downs with my physical health, which I seem to be getting better at managing.  I thrive on being really busy and active and have realised that I tend to feel healthier physically as well as mentally when I keep this up, so when I feel good I make the most of it by doing as much as possible.  I’m really ambitious so not one to waste time!  However, it’s really important to recognise when I need to take things down a notch.  I recently had a spell of feeling poorly for a few days and responded to my body telling me to take it east by having a rest week.  This meant I did gentle exercise rather than my usual intense, structured training, and spent the rest of my free time relaxing at home.  After a few days of this I felt much better and more myself.

Lauren has been persistently non-concordant with her medication.  She expresses paranoia and delusions that it will be harmful to her and do no good, and that the whole mental health system is one big conspiracy.  Lauren becomes highly argumentative when staff attempt to explain the benefits of her treatment and why she needs it.

I have no desire to take brain-altering drugs that will cause a multitude of unpleasant and potentially harmful effects.  Ultimately, we don’t really understand exactly how these drugs work and what their effects are on the body long-term.  There is no real difference between these drugs and illicit ones, except that psychiatric meds have been packaged and marketed in a way that implies they will fix some sort of problem or deficit, rather than as psychoactive substances (which they are).  Because I feel so strongly about this, any discussion about psychiatric meds is likely to end up quite heated; not least if someone is trying to get me to take them! 

Lauren has been very low in mood and withdrawn today.  She has refused to spend time with others and spent a lot of time isolating herself in her room, doing nothing.

I meditated a lot today, which made me feel very peaceful and at one with myself and the world.

From my experience working in a psychiatric hospital, I genuinely believe that my fictional patient notes above are quite a realistic representation of what might be written about me if I were unfortunate enough to be subjected to this.  The problem is that once you’re in a mental health service, the system seems to be hell-bent on giving you a diagnosis, and this is really difficult to shake.  In Caitlin’s research I mentioned above, one participant noted how a diagnosis is given, which gives rise to a particular type of medical treatment, and when it doesn’t work, another diagnosis is applied, along with a change in medication, and so on.  This resonates with me from my experience working in mental health, where new diagnoses and medication combinations appear to be flung around in a sometimes arbitrary, trial-and-error type of manner.  In my fictional situation above, I can see how my diagnosis might have changed to try and fit my presentation at each time, perhaps from bipolar disorder to paranoid schizophrenia to major depression, and no doubt over a number of years of ‘failed’ attempts at treatment and defiance of the system probably ultimately some sort of ‘personality disorder’.

I’ve talked before about how I feel that my determination to take good care of myself has really helped me to stay mentally well.  When I feel things are not going so well, I take the time to understand why this is and work out a way of remedying this.  I am very fortunate that I have always been able to do this with just myself and my friends & family for support, but I am all too aware of the many people who need extra support from mental health services to get well.  Unfortunately, the approach to mental health that has developed over the years jumps straight to medical solutions, with room to explore and work through distress being reserved for the lucky few that are able to access such services, or a kind of bolt-on to medical treatment.  At the conference that prompted me to write this post, I was inspired by the story of a mum who had seen her son go through acute psychosis, which she and he were helped through by support from SoteriaBradford.  He had been prescribed a variety of antipsychotics, none of which had relieved his distress, and the thing that really started to help him was a therapeutic approach called Open Dialogue, which he and his mum engaged with as a family.  This is a long process that requires concerted effort from therapist, patient and their families, but by engaging with this process they were able to identify factors that had contributed to his declining mental health, which ultimately supported him to come through the psychosis.  As a family they recognise that this may return at some stage but are confident that by accepting it and working with it rather than trying to force it to be silenced pharmaceutically, they can cope when this occurs.  Interestingly, there was no major trauma leading to his illness, but a culmination of elements of life and how he perceived them that took their toll. 

The point I’m really trying to make here, and the reason for the title of this post, is that, simply, we are all human, and could do well to remember that more often.  In her talk at the History of Mental Health conference, Gail Hornstein talked of how we’re always placing ourselves and others into categories – patient or professional, expert by experience or expert by training, those needing support or those offering it.  In reality we all have various roles and identities we fulfil and usually sit on a spectrum or fit within multiple categories simultaneously – if we can embrace this, perhaps we can achieve more than we would’ve done otherwise – for instance, Peer Support has become quite buzzword in the mental health arena, yet it is a term reserved for a relationship between patients and other patients.  Why not apply peer support to the staff too?  Surely they need support as much as those they seek to help, both in terms of professional development and looking after their own wellbeing?  And, indeed, to return to my original point about epistemology (where does knowledge come from?), professionals could do well to accept that patients may be able to help them too, and offer knowledge about their condition that no diagnostic label could ever hope to shed light on.

Patient-centredness is supposed to be at the heart of mental healthcare these days, yet still so many people within services don’t feel listened to or supported effectively.  As an example, those wanting to prioritise losing weight or giving up smoking are often told “let’s get your mental health sorted first”, rather than trusting that this person intuitively knows what they need and may see improvements in their mental health as a result of working on their own personal goals.  Using this innate personal knowledge in conjunction with, rather than in opposition to, the knowledge of healthcare professionals, could be a powerful tool in helping people to recover and master their own wellness in a holistic way.  An anecdote from my own work comes to mind here: I work as a Wellness Coach, supporting people to make lifestyle changes around weight management, physical activity, smoking and alcohol.  We recently had a client who the staff member that initially spoke to believed needed intensive mental health support, as he reported having used such services extensively in the past.  On speaking with this person myself and exploring in more depth what their priorities were, it turned out they felt getting more active was exactly what they needed in order to improve both their physical health and mental state.  This sits perfectly within my remit as a coach, whereas others might have pointed him in the direction of a mental health service, not fully understanding what it was that he wanted to achieve.  After a few weeks of working with him on some basic goal setting and action planning, he was feeling much more positive, in control and ready to move on with this healthier new lifestyle without ongoing support.

I could talk about this forever, but I’m aware that I’ve already gone on a bit and may be pushing my luck in terms of keeping or losing your attention!  If you’ve read this far then thanks for persevering.  I just want to end by emphasising my message that being human is a powerful thing, and I believe that by nurturing this fact – by always bearing in mind that ourselves and others are, simply, human, and relating to ourselves and each other as such (rather than as categories, diagnoses and so on), then we can cultivate recovery, wellness, happiness and achievement of our potential.  This can be far more powerful than what can be achieved by constantly striving for the perfect labels to separate ourselves off into various boxes.  We are human, we can grow and develop by understanding ourselves and being understood by others, we do have the capacity to recover and heal from trauma, and we will build a happier and healthier society by nurturing these qualities of humanity.